Chapter 2 - The Plan I Was Never Supposed to Hear
The nurse placed a temporary restriction on my visitor list.
My parents and Olivia weren't permitted into the maternity wing unless Daniel or I specifically approved it.
At first, I felt embarrassed.
I kept thinking about the nurses discussing us at the station.
The family fighting over a newborn.
What kind of people did that?
Then I realized I was still trying to protect my parents from the consequences of what they had done.
Even after they had frightened me in a hospital bed.
Even after my father had treated one of my sons like compensation for Olivia's infertility.
That realization hurt almost as much as the incision across my abdomen.
Daniel refused to leave that night.
He slept in the reclining chair with one foot nearly touching the bassinets.
Every time a nurse entered, he woke.
At three in the morning, I whispered, "You know nobody is stealing them through the ceiling."
His eyes opened.
"Not taking chances."
Despite everything, I smiled.
By morning, I felt physically worse.
The medication helped, but every movement felt like someone pulling a wire through my abdomen.
Ethan cried constantly.
Noah slept through almost everything.
Daniel changed diapers with the concentration of a man defusing explosives.
For a few hours, life felt almost normal.
Then my phone started vibrating.
Twenty-three missed calls.
Nine from Mom.
Seven from Dad.
Five from Olivia.
Two from my aunt Carol.
There were also messages.
Mom: Your father was upset. You need to understand where this came from.
Dad: Call me when you're ready to act like an adult.
Olivia: I never asked them to say it that way.
That message bothered me.
Not: I never asked them to say it.
She had written: that way.
Daniel read it twice.
"Ask her what way she did want them to say it."
I stared at him.
"You think she knew?"
"I think her text sounds like she knew something."
My fingers trembled as I typed.
What exactly did you ask them to say?
Olivia didn't respond.
But five minutes later, Mom called.
I let it ring.
She called again.
And again.
Finally, Daniel said, "Maybe answer on speaker."
I did.
"Sarah."
Mom sounded exhausted.
"What?"
"You have to stop turning this into some horrible thing."
I almost laughed.
"I'm turning it into something?"
"Your father communicated badly."
"He demanded my baby."
"He suggested—"
"No. He demanded."
Mom exhaled.
"Olivia has been struggling."
"I know."
"Then show compassion."
"I gave her money. I went to appointments. I supported her."
"That's not the same."
"You're right. Apparently compassion means giving away my child."
"Stop saying it like that."
"How should I say it?"
Silence.
Then Mom said something that changed everything.
"We discussed a family adoption months ago."
I stopped breathing.
Daniel straightened.
"What?"
Mom froze.
Even through the phone, I heard the mistake land.
"Mom."
She didn't answer.
"You discussed what?"
"It wasn't serious."
"With whom?"
"Your father and I."
"And Olivia?"
Silence.
"Mom."
"She was having a very difficult time."
My hands went cold.
"When did you discuss this?"
"Sarah, don't—"
"When?"
Another silence.
"After your twenty-week ultrasound."
I remembered that appointment.
The day we learned we were having two boys.
Mom had been thrilled.
Olivia had cried afterward in the parking lot.
I had hugged her.
I had apologized for my happiness.
And while I was apologizing, apparently they had already begun discussing whether one of my unborn sons should become hers.
I felt sick.
"Did Olivia know?"
Mom hesitated.
That was the answer.
"Yes."
Daniel stood.
His face had gone pale with anger.
"Ask whether they talked to a lawyer."
I stared at him.
"Why?"
"Ask."
I swallowed.
"Mom, did anyone speak to a lawyer?"
She became defensive instantly.
"Your father only wanted information."
My heart seemed to stop.
"Oh my God."
"It wasn't what you think."
"What could I possibly think that's worse than this?"
"He asked about adoption within families."
"Before my babies were born?"
"Nothing was decided."
"Because I wasn't part of the conversation!"
"You would have gotten emotional."
"I AM THEIR MOTHER!"
Ethan began crying.
Daniel lifted him gently.
Mom continued.
"We thought once you saw how much Olivia was hurting—"
I ended the call.
For nearly a minute, I stared at my phone.
Then another message appeared.
Olivia.
Please don't hate me.
I typed back immediately.
Did you know?
Three dots appeared.
Disappeared.
Appeared again.
Finally:
Yes.
My eyes filled with tears.
Daniel sat beside me holding Ethan.
"What did she say?"
I showed him.
His jaw tightened.
Another message arrived.
I never thought Dad would demand it in the hospital.
Then:
They made it sound like maybe you and Daniel would eventually agree.
I stared at those words.
Eventually agree.
As if we had merely not yet been persuaded.
As if my sons were the subject of an ongoing negotiation.
I wrote:
Did you want one of my babies?
This time she answered immediately.
I wanted to be a mother.
Not an answer.
I tried again.
Did you want MY baby?
Long silence.
Then:
I thought maybe one day you'd understand why sharing one could save me.
I began crying again.
Daniel read the message.
"Block her."
I couldn't.
Not yet.
Because Olivia was my little sister.
Five years younger.
The girl whose hair I braided before school.
The teenager who slept in my bed when thunderstorms scared her.
The woman whose hand I held after her miscarriage.
How had we gotten here?
"I need to know everything," I said.
Daniel looked uneasy.
"Sarah."
"I need to know how far this went."
I called Aunt Carol.
She answered immediately.
"Oh, honey."
"Did you know?"
Pause.
That was enough.
"You knew too."
"I knew your father had mentioned something."
"When?"
"Christmas."
Christmas.
I had been six months pregnant.
Olivia had given Ethan and Noah matching stuffed bears.
She had placed both hands on my stomach and said, "They're going to be so loved."
I suddenly couldn't breathe.
"What did Dad say?"
Carol sighed.
"He said twins were different."
"Different how?"
"That sometimes families adopt within families."
"He said that?"
"He said since Olivia couldn't have children, maybe there was a way for everyone to get what they wanted."
"What I wanted?"
"I told him it wasn't normal."
"Did he listen?"
"No."
"Did Olivia hear him?"
"Yes."
My chest tightened.
"And?"
Aunt Carol became quiet.
"She cried."
"Because she was offended?"
"No."
I knew before she finished.
"Because she said she'd thought about it too."
I closed my eyes.
There it was.
Not one awful hospital conversation.
Months.
Months of planning.
Imagining.
Discussing.
Perhaps even expecting.
My sons had been assigned in their minds before they were born.
Daniel took my hand.
"What else?"
Carol hesitated.
"Sarah, your father talked to someone."
"A lawyer?"
"I don't know who."
"About adoption?"
"I think so."
Daniel heard.
His expression changed immediately.
"Carol," he said, leaning toward the phone, "did Robert ever say which baby?"
She didn't answer.
My stomach twisted.
"Aunt Carol?"
"I shouldn't get involved."
"You're already involved."
She sighed shakily.
"At Christmas, he called one of them Olivia's baby."
Everything inside me went still.
"What?"
"He put his hand on your stomach."
I remembered.
Dad had done that.
One hand near my left side.
I had laughed because one baby kicked him.
Carol continued.
"He said, 'That one's probably Olivia's.'"
I felt physically ill.
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"I thought it was a terrible joke."
"It wasn't."
"I know that now."
After the call ended, I stared at the ceiling.
Daniel held my hand.
"We're changing everything."
"What do you mean?"
"Hospital security. Discharge plan. Pediatrician permissions. Emergency contacts. Your parents get nothing."
Part of me wanted to tell him he was overreacting.
Then I looked at my sons.
And realized he wasn't.
Later that afternoon, Nurse Patel came in with an administrator.
Her name was Melissa Grant.
She closed the door behind her.
"Mrs. Mitchell, your husband mentioned concerns regarding family members possibly attempting unauthorized access to your babies."
I felt ashamed hearing it said aloud.
"Yes."
Melissa nodded calmly.
"We can flag both infants' charts."
"Please."
"We can also add a confidential password. Anyone requesting information will need it."
Daniel said, "Do that."
Melissa continued.
"And there's something else."
Her expression had changed.
"What?"
"Someone called the nursery desk this morning."
My heart stopped.
"Who?"
"They identified themselves as your sister."
Daniel stood.
"What did she want?"
Melissa hesitated.
"She asked which twin was scheduled to be discharged first."
The room went silent.
Then she added the part that made every hair on my arms rise.
"She also asked whether a family member could pick up an infant if the mother signed paperwork."
Daniel and I looked at each other.
Suddenly this wasn't only about cruel words.
Someone was gathering information.
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And we still didn't know exactly why.
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