Chapter 13 - A Wife He Thought Would Never Leave
The separation process was difficult.
There were forms to complete, financial disclosures to review, accounts to reconcile, and decisions about the house.
Evan occasionally cooperated.
Other times, communication deteriorated.
I stopped trying to interpret his changing moods.
Rebecca handled the legal questions.
I handled rebuilding my life.
By February, I had four design clients.
One wanted a kitchen renovation.
Another needed help turning a detached garage into a guest cottage.
Thomas Whitaker recommended me to two neighbors.
I rented a tiny studio above a bookstore in downtown Asheville.
The rent frightened me.
So did purchasing a laptop, design software, sample materials, and a secondhand drafting table.
But on the first morning I unlocked my new studio, I stood in the doorway and felt something I hadn't experienced in years.
Pride.
Not because someone had chosen me.
Because I had chosen something for myself.
I painted the walls warm white.
Installed simple oak shelves.
Hung photographs of previous projects.
Then I placed a small framed picture of my grandmother beside the window.
I named the business Brooks & Bloom Interiors.
For a moment, I considered removing my married surname entirely.
Then I decided I didn't have to make every decision in reaction to Evan.
The name belonged to me too, at least for now.
I would change it when and if I wanted.
Megan visited in March.
She walked into the studio carrying flowers and a bottle of sparkling cider.
"Look at you!"
I laughed.
"It's one room."
"It's your room."
She examined the sample boards.
Then she found the framed photograph on my desk.
It showed me standing outside the farmhouse I'd recently finished renovating.
I looked happy.
Genuinely happy.
Megan grew quiet.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"Megan."
She smiled.
"I haven't seen that face in years."
I looked at the photograph again.
For the first time, I understood what Nora had meant when she said I'd become smaller around Evan.
I hadn't stopped being capable.
I'd simply stopped practicing independence.
And every small decision I made now felt like recovering something precious.
That spring, Evan requested a personal meeting.
Rebecca forwarded the request and asked whether I wished to consider it.
I hesitated.
There were practical matters still unresolved, and I knew I would eventually need to face him in some capacity.
I agreed to meet in a public café, with clear boundaries about the discussion.
He arrived early.
When I entered, he stood.
"Claire."
"Hello."
He looked at my clothes.
A navy blazer, cream blouse, and tailored trousers.
"You look different."
"I've been working."
"I heard."
"From who?"
"Your sister mentioned the studio when we exchanged messages about some remaining belongings."
I nodded.
He gestured toward the chair.
We sat.
For a moment, neither of us spoke.
Then Evan reached into his coat pocket.
He placed my wedding ring on the table.
I stared at it.
"I found the envelope," he said.
"I assumed you would."
He pushed it toward me.
"I never wanted us to end like this."
I looked up.
"How did you want it to end?"
He swallowed.
"That's not fair."
"Neither was planning to leave me after using my name to arrange financing."
His face tightened.
"I've admitted I made mistakes."
"Then stop asking me to comfort you while you live with the consequences."
He looked away.
For several seconds, he seemed genuinely lost.
Then he whispered, "Do you ever miss us?"
I considered lying.
It would have been easy to tell him no.
Instead, I answered honestly.
"Sometimes."
Hope flashed across his face.
"But I miss what I believed we were, Evan. That's different."
His shoulders sank.
I reached for my handbag.
"We should keep the remaining discussions with our attorneys."
He stared at the ring.
"You're really not coming back?"
"No."
"Even after eight years?"
I stood.
"Especially after eight years. I finally understand how valuable my time is."
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Then I walked out.
For the first time, I didn't look back to see whether he was watching.
