Chapter 3 - The Name We Stopped Saying
Mason told me the truth the morning before the state championship.
He knocked on my bedroom door at seven-thirty.
I was awake, pretending not to be.
Championship nerves aren’t limited to players.
“Dad?”
“Yeah.”
“You got a minute?”
That sentence has never introduced anything good.
I sat up.
Mason entered and closed the door.
He didn’t sit on the bed.
He chose the chair across from me.
Distance.
Immediately, I knew.
He rubbed his palms together.
“I need to tell you something.”
“Okay.”
“But you have to let me finish.”
My stomach tightened.
“Go ahead.”
He looked at the floor.
“I invited David to the game tomorrow.”
There are silences where nothing happens.
Then there are silences where an entire life rearranges itself.
“Who?”
It was a stupid question.
Mason looked up.
“My biological father.”
The words felt formal.
Clinical.
Safe.
I nodded slowly.
“How?”
“He found me on Instagram.”
“When?”
He hesitated.
“Mason.”
“Three months ago.”
I stared at him.
“Three months?”
“Dad—”
“Three months.”
“I was going to tell you.”
“When?”
“I don’t know.”
“Before or after he showed up?”
He looked down.
“Before.”
“When?”
“I said I don’t know.”
I stood.
Not because I wanted to intimidate him.
Because I couldn’t sit.
“You’ve been talking to the man for three months.”
“Yes.”
“Calls?”
“Sometimes.”
“Messages?”
“Yes.”
“Video?”
“A couple times.”
I paced toward the window.
Outside, snow was piled along the curb.
A neighbor scraped ice from his windshield.
Normal morning.
Normal world.
My son had been speaking to David for ninety days.
“You lied to me.”
“I didn’t lie.”
“You hid it.”
“That’s different.”
“No, it’s quieter.”
Mason flinched.
I hated that.
I hated myself more because some small, ugly part of me was glad he had flinched.
“Why?” I asked.
“I wanted to understand.”
“Understand what?”
“Him.”
“You know who he is.”
“No, I know what he did.”
“That should be enough.”
“It isn’t.”
I turned.
His face was red.
Not angry yet.
Scared.
“He’s my father.”
The room tilted slightly.
Mason saw it.
“I mean biological.”
“Right.”
“Dad—”
“No, it’s fine.”
“It’s not.”
I laughed once.
Dry.
“That man left you alone in a house hours after your mother died.”
“I know.”
“You were four.”
“I know.”
“You were eating dry cereal because nobody was there to make breakfast.”
“I know!”
His voice cracked.
I stopped.
Tears stood in his eyes.
“Do you think I don’t know?” he said. “You’ve told me.”
“Because it happened.”
“I know it happened.”
“Then what exactly are you looking for?”
He stood.
“The answer.”
“To what?”
His jaw shook.
“Why wasn’t I enough to make him stay?”
My anger vanished.
Just fell out of me.
Mason looked eighteen.
Then five.
Then four.
All at once.
I sat back down.
“Mason…”
“I know what you’re gonna say.”
“No, you don’t.”
“You’re gonna say it wasn’t me.”
“It wasn’t.”
“I know that logically.”
He tapped his temple.
“Up here, I know.”
Then pressed a fist against his chest.
“But this part is stupid.”
I couldn’t speak.
He wiped his face quickly.
“He messaged me happy birthday. I almost blocked him.”
“Why didn’t you?”
“He said he was sorry.”
“A message.”
“I know.”
“Fourteen years and he typed sorry.”
“I know.”
“He doing well?”
Mason hesitated.
There it was.
“He’s married.”
I looked away.
“He lives in Chicago. Runs a commercial real estate company.”
Something hard rose in me.
“Good for him.”
“Dad.”
“No, seriously. Great. Nice to know abandoning your kid doesn’t interfere with career growth.”
“That’s not fair.”
I turned.
“To whom?”
Mason immediately regretted it.
I could see it.
“Dad…”
“What part should I be fair about?”
“I’m not defending him.”
“Sounds like you are.”
“I’m trying to understand him.”
“He left.”
“You think I don’t know that?”
“You were four. I was there.”
“I know!”
“No. You know the story.”
My voice rose.
“I walked into that house at seven in the morning. You were sitting on the floor asking where your daddy was. Your mother was dead and he was already gone.”
Mason covered his face.
I stopped.
The anger drained, leaving shame.
“I’m sorry.”
He shook his head.
“No.”
“I shouldn’t have—”
“No, you’re right.”
“I’m not.”
“You lived it too.”
That caught me.
I sat.
Mason lowered his hands.
“I’m not asking you to forgive him.”
“Then what do you want?”
His answer came quietly.
“I want you to trust me.”
I looked at him.
He swallowed.
“I was scared to tell you.”
“Why?”
“Because I thought you’d think I was choosing him over you.”
That hurt.
Not because I believed he was choosing David.
Because some part of me had believed exactly that.
Mason saw it.
His face broke.
“Dad.”
I stared at the floor.
“I hate that I feel this way.”
“What way?”
“Like somebody can take you.”
He stepped closer.
“Nobody can.”
“You’re eighteen.”
“So?”
“You don’t need me the way you used to.”
“That doesn’t make him you.”
“I know.”
“Do you?”
I looked up.
Mason stood directly in front of me.
“My entire life is you.”
I almost told him not to say that.
A child’s life should become bigger than his parent.
But he kept going.
“You taught me to skate.”
“You taught yourself.”
“You froze your ass off at every six-a.m. practice.”
“Accurate.”
“You worked Saturdays to pay for travel tournaments.”
“That part I regret.”
He laughed weakly.
“You came to every game.”
“Not every.”
“Almost.”
“Traffic in Erie.”
“You drove four hours and got there for the third period.”
“I’m a hero.”
“I’m serious.”
“So am I.”
He sat on the bed beside me.
“I just need to see him.”
I nodded.
“That doesn’t mean I know what I want after.”
“Okay.”
“He might be lying.”
“Yes.”
“He might disappoint me.”
“Yes.”
“I still need to know.”
I looked at my son.
Really looked.
He wasn’t four.
That was my problem.
For fourteen years, some part of me had kept him sitting on that rug with a cereal bowl.
But Mason wasn’t waiting to be rescued anymore.
He was a man deciding what questions he was willing to ask.
“Okay,” I said.
His shoulders dropped.
“Okay?”
“He comes.”
Mason exhaled.
“Thank you.”
“Don’t thank me yet. I reserve the right to hate every second.”
“Fair.”
“Where is he sitting?”
“Section 113.”
“Far from me?”
“Yes.”
“Smart.”
He smiled.
We hugged.
That should have been the end of it.
It wasn’t.
At eleven that night, I walked into the kitchen for water.
Mason’s phone was on the counter charging.
The screen lit.
I had no intention of reading it.
Then I saw the name.
David Rowe.
The message preview appeared.
Tomorrow after the game, I need to tell you what really happened after I left. There’s something Leo doesn’t know.
I stared at the screen.
My mouth went dry.
Something Leo doesn’t know.
For fourteen years, I had believed I was the person who knew exactly what David had done.
Apparently, David believed otherwise.
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And in less than twenty-four hours, he planned to tell my son why.
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